söndag 21 juni 2009

Life and stuff

Morning again....Coffe to wake up and washing clothes to have something to ware.
Scratching thoose nasty moskito bites, i hate them, itches like crazy!! I wanna scratch the skin of my legs!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!
Il try not to, legs without skin kinda looks a bit nasty!
eeew....

Wrote stuff about looking in the mirror not knowing who is looking back last time and i think all people have that from time to time. Its not a serious thing.
Got to think of people in my life, some closer and others more faraway and some i talk to maybe once a year....But all of them has had some impact in my life. Left some colour..
Some of them opend my eyes for other ways of living but made me more confused in other ways...
To talk to some of them makes me realise that all people have their blockings and things to get over to walk further in life......
I think all people are having the same things we need to get over , just a bit different things depending on who it is. Some have the strength and some dont.
I hope i have.....I know i have......
Just gotta get everything in order.
Stop thinking what if and start living here and now....

So life here and now is cleaning up .....not fun but thats how it is.....

Like sunday

Well, Its sunday, its after midnight.....
Have been to friends house for dinner, rellay good dinner and some games and then a dvd movie. I think it was 28 weeks later. I Liked it.
Im not really into this Zombie thingy Movies but they seem to start growing on me.
Some of them are really nice. well done.

My friend asked some questions that made me think again, like what do i wanna do now that im not working. Like Work??
I want to work. But i have noo idea with what....
On Monday im planning to go down to the office where they can help me look for educations and shit. Its kinda time to start doing something about that. If i can....

Is there any people more than me out there who is confused as me???
dont know what i wanna do becouse there is so much i wanna do but i seem to have trouble to make it happen.......And theese dreams always change....
Some stay and some go....and new arrives.....
And life seems sooo boring at times its almost like the cats sleeping in the window have more fun.
Have you ever looked into a mirror and not knowing who is looking back at yah?
Not like in a horror movie, Like for real!
Hehe
Well, its time for me to do something else than word pooping here...

Lyrics :
I used to roam all night longI lurked the streets late at nightI ain't never comin' homeBut lonelinessIs part of the gameAnd misery loves companyI used to think that I was a kingFancy cars, fancy clothes and diamond ringsYeah but happiness is a funny thing And misery just loves companyBridgeDon't even try to understandWhat goes on inside this manAs a boy I used to dreamCuz' sometimes life ain't what it seemsWe used to dance under moonlightBut then the tears began to fallAnd baby that ain't rightCuz' losin' youWas part of the gameAnd misery loves company Cuz' fuckin' upWas part of the gameAnd misery loves company

fredag 19 juni 2009

Ciao

Hello there...
Today its midsummer here in Sweden and we are going to moms place again.
Food, this special food we eat at midsummer and then we are going to Österbybruk for the celebration and the Midsummer pole. This midsummer thing we have ins Sweden is not that easy to explain to someone who is not from here.
So i took the explaining from Wikipedia ..

Sweden:
In modern
Sweden, Midsummer's Eve and Midsummer's Day (Midsommarafton and Midsommardagen) were formerly celebrated on June 23th and 24th, but since the 1950's on the Friday between June 19th and June 25th and the following Saturday. It is arguably the most important holiday of the year, and one of the most uniquely Swedish in the way it is celebrated, even if it has been influenced by other countries long ago. The main celebrations take place on the Friday, and the traditional events include raising and dancing around a huge maypole. One typical dance is the frog dance. Before the maypole is raised, greens and flowers are collected and used to cover the entire pole.
Raising and dancing around a
maypole (majstång or midsommarstång) is an activity that attracts families and many others. People dancing around the pole listen to traditional music and many wear traditional folk costumes. The year's first potatoes, pickled herring, sour cream, and possibly the first strawberries of the season are on the menu. Drinking songs are also important at this feast, and many drink heavily.
Because Midsummer was thought to be one of the times of the year when magic was strongest, it was considered a good night to perform rituals to look into the future. Traditionally, young people pick bouquets of seven or nine different flowers and put them under their pillow in the hope of dreaming about their future spouse. In the past it was believed that herbs picked at Midsummer were highly potent, and water from springs could bring good health. Greenery placed over houses and barns were supposed to bring good fortune and health to people and livestock; this old tradition of decorating with greens continues, even though most don't take it seriously. To decorate with greens was called att maja (to may) and may be the origin of the word majstång, maja coming originally from the month May. Other researchers say the term came from German merchants who raised the maypole in June because the Swedish climate made it impossible to find the necessary greens and flowers in May, and continued to call it a maypole. Today, however, it is most commonly called a midsommarstång.
In earlier times, small spires wrapped in greens were erected; this probably predates the maypole tradition, which is believed by many to have come from the continent in the Middle Ages. Others argue that some form of Midsummer pole occurred in Sweden during the pre-Christian times, and was a phallic fertility symbol, meant to impregnate the earth, but as there were no records from those times it cannot be proven, and this idea might just be a modern interpretation of the poles form. The earliest historical mention of the maypole in Sweden is from the Middle Ages. Midsummer was, however, linked to an ancient fertility festival which was adapted into
St. John's Day by the church, even though it retained many pagan traditions, as the Swedes were slow to give up the old heathen customs. The connection to fertility is naturally linked to the time of year. Many young people became passionate at Midsummer, and this was accepted, probably because it resulted in more childbirths in March which was a good time for children to be born.
In Denmark and Norway midsummer is referred to as the eve of
St. Hans but it's only in Sweden that it has kept its original name.

And for you in USA
USA

Solstice fire in Montana
Midsummer celebrations are held throughout the US. The NYC Swedish Midsummer celebrations in Battery Park, New York City, attracts some 3,000-5,000 people annually, which makes it one of the largest celebrations after the ones held in Leksand and at the Skansen Park in Stockholm. Sweden Day, a Midsummer celebration which also honors Swedish heritage and history which has been held annually on the sound in Throgs Neck, in New York City since 1941. Swedish Midsummer is also celebrated in other places with large Swedish and Scandinavian populations, such as Chicago, Minneapolis, and Lindsborg, Kansas. The Swedish "language village" (summer camp) Sjölunden, run by Concordia College in Minnesota, also celebrates Midsummer.
Geneva, Illinois, hosts a Swedish Day (Swedish:Svenskarnas Dag) festival on the third Sunday of June. The event, featuring maypole-raising, dancing, and presentation of an authentic Viking ship, dates back to 1911.
The
Seattle, Washington neighborhood of Fremont puts on a large Summer Solstice Parade & Pageant, which for many years has controversially included painted naked cyclists. In St. Edwards Park in Kenmore, Washington, the Skandia Folkdance Society hosts Midsommarfest, which includes a Scandinavian solstice pole.
A solstitial celebration is held on
Casper Mountain in Wyoming at Crimson Dawn park. Crimson Dawn is known in the area for the great stories of mythical creatures and people that live on Casper Mountain. The celebration is attended by many people from the community, and from around the country. A large bonfire is held and all are invited to throw a handful of red dirt into the fire in hopes that they get their wish granted.[4]

And for my friends in Italy

Italy
In
Italy, the feast of Saint John the Baptist has been celebrated in Florence from medieval times, certainly in the Renaissance, with festivals sometimes lasting the three days from 21 to 24 June. This happens nowadays also in Cesena with a special street market and celebration that last from June 21st to 24nd. Saint John the Baptist is the patron saint of Genoa, Florence and Turin where a fireworks display takes place at the celebration on the river. In Turin Saint John's cult is also diffused since medieval times when the city stops to work for two days and people from the surroundings comes to dance around the bonfire in the central square.

And Canada

Canada (Quebec)
In
Quebec, Canada, the celebration of June 24 was brought to New France by the first French colonists. Great fires were lit at night. According to the Jesuit Relations, the first celebrations of St John's day in New France took place around 1638. In 1834, Ludger Duvernay, printer and editor of La Minerve took the leadership of an effort to make June 24 the national holiday of the Canadiens (French Canadians). In 1908, Pope Pius X designated John the Baptist as the patron saint of the French-Canadians. In 1925, June 24 became a legal holiday in Quebec and in 1977, it became the secular National Holiday of Quebec. It still is the tradition to light great fires on the night of the 24th of June.

So as you can read this midsummer thingy has spread over the world but it seems to be biggest in Scandinavia. Many of us still celebrates the heathern ways and do not celebrate for the christian way.....Anyway, some history there...
Now its time for me to get ready, so take care everybody and have fun fun fun!!

måndag 15 juni 2009

I Hate being at home

I really hate being at home without work.....But now it dont seem to be much work to search.
Damn i hate this.
Im looking every fu** day for jobs to search but there is nothing out there.
Well, im gonna make some calls today to see if its time to go back to school.
Maybe get some more education and search more later on.
But i have to check if its possible, everything costs money. I hate money....stupid things.
Everyone needs them and whats them so bad they act like crazy.
Anyway, i went to Elindas Vernisage and it was fun. Her friend H started taking photos of me.
Why do that happen?? It has happend at my last work to. Several times.
But atleast 2 times the people asked for it and did not take a photo without my Yes to it.
Do they not think i notice if somone takes a pic ??
Strange.
Anyway, Her paintings are great! Very nice to watch.

And yesturday we went out to the storage and started to go through what was going away and what is gonna be left. Jikes, there is alot of junk in there.
Need to have a bigger truck or something to get rid of it all.
Crap crap and crap, why do we have all theese crap???

Today its still cleaning day.....i hate this celaning all the time! It never ends!!

But sooooon!!!! Im going for a trip!!!! Going to watch Social Distortion!!!!!!! I cant wait!!!!
I love them!! Mike Ness, The singer, Is the sexiest man ever!!!! He is the King!!!
woohooo
First time for over 10 years they are back in Sweden!!! Im NOT gonna miss it!!!

Gotta go.....washing clothes....Seee yah

onsdag 3 juni 2009

alright, what has happend?
We went to Malmö to visit som friends and family.
Had alot of fun and made some shopping.
I found a dress that i love on sale. Great!!
Did party some also.
All that was awesome and fun .

Now, im home alone and all my friends went so Sweden rock.
Would have been nice to know all of this a good time before so that i could have made arrangements to come along. But a short time before when all tickets coasts loads of money and shit is not nice. Feels a bit like they did not want me there. But i know thats not how it is, but it feels like that.
I cant read their minds so......
Yeah right now im just gonna be cranky and kinda mad.
And now i lost the feeling for writing,,,,,fuck